7 YRS PROCESS - DAY 1294 - EXPERIMENTING WITH THE SLEEP AGAIN - PART 17 - DAY 5

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Experimenting with the sleep again

This is the continuation of the previous article:

EXPERIMENTING WITH THE SLEEP AGAIN - PART 1
EXPERIMENTING WITH THE SLEEP AGAIN - PART 13 - DAY 1
EXPERIMENTING WITH THE SLEEP AGAIN - PART 14 - DAY 2
EXPERIMENTING WITH THE SLEEP AGAIN - PART 15 - DAY 3
EXPERIMENTING WITH THE SLEEP AGAIN - PART 16 - DAY 4


Yesterday the crash continued. I could not hold anymore and I slept just over 6 hours. Even sleeping on the sofa which is uncomfortable did not help and I slept long. I woke up few times but then I changed the position and I continued to sleep.

Also during the day I took a break to do breathing exercises and then I fell asleep for 5-10 min.

So this is my 5th day of the experiment and I have already 2 days with the crash. But I will not judge myself for it. It is just my experiment. Then I have a lot of work with massages which is very demanding and physically intensive.

Right now it is 11 pm. So far I am kind of ok. I feel light tiredness around my chest.

And in my head I still have the same question:

"What the fuck are you doing to yourself Greg !?"

LOL...

Anyway... although this whole experiment was difficult right from the beginning now I see that it is getting more and more difficult each day. And every crash makes it even more difficult as I have to deal with the consequences of it. I could decide ( because of the overwhelming amount of work ) to suspend my experiment and do it sometime in the future. But I know that this would not change anything as I would have to face the difficult moment anyway. So I either do it now or I don't. There is no half-way solutions. There is no place for compromise. And there cannot be postponing for the future as in the future it is not going to be easier at all.

THE BEST MOMENT TO DO IT IS NOW.



To be continued





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Written: 2015 - October - 31   Published: 2015 - October - 31      © Copyright 2015 - Greg Wiater