This is the continuation of the previous article:

I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH - MY FATHER - PART 1
I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH - MY FATHER - PART 2
I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH - MY FATHER - PART 3
I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH - MY FATHER - PART 4
I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH - MY FATHER - PART 5

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give my girlfriend more then I have; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have formed a belief within my mind about myself that I am not good enough and I wanted to suppress it and cover it up through giving my girlfriend all that she wants and expect from myself to work even harder to be able to give her even more even tough this was putting stress on my body.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have formed a belief within my mind about myself that I am not good enough and to make myself feel good despite this belief I have expected from myself to give my girlfriend all that she wants; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that whatever I give my girlfriend is never going to be enough because I am constantly projecting and manifesting my belief that I am not good enough and thus I will always need to give more and more to suppress and cover up this belief.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that my partners reflect to me my own belief which I have formed within my mind about myself that I am not good enough; within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my partners that they are expecting from me too much and don't give me enough, instead of reflecting it back to me and investigating what I have created for myself within all these experiences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be a good and loving boyfriend and according to this self-definition of a good boyfriend, I should give my girlfriend all that she needs and wants at all costs; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have used this self-definition of a good boyfriend as an excuse to not look at myself and investigate what I have created and manifested for myself within all these experiences with my partners.

When and as I see myself to expect from myself to give my girlfriend more then I have and more then I can give in any given moment, I stop and I breathe; I realize that I have allowed myself to define myself within my mind as not good enough and I try to suppress this belief through satisfying needs and wants of my girlfriend; and thus I stop myself and I deal with what is here in the moment.

To be continued...