7 YRS PROCESS - DAY 287 - EXPECTING FROM MYSELF TO HAVE GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH MY PARENTS - PART 3

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Expecting from myself to have good relationship with my parents

This is the continuation of the previous article:

EXPECTING FROM MYSELF TO HAVE GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH MY PARENTS - PART 1
EXPECTING FROM MYSELF TO HAVE GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH MY PARENTS - PART 2


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect from my parents to be perfect; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have created within my mind an idea which doesn't take into consideration the facts of this reality and through this I create stress, tension and disappointment within myself whenever I see that my parents are not conforming with the image created within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty because my relationship with my parents is not perfect; within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my relationship with my parents should be perfect instead of realizing that my relationship is as it is as a result and consequence of what I have accepted and allowed to exist and thus I am responsible for it and it is up to me and my parents if we want to change it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty ( whenever somebody asks me about my relationship with my parents ) that my relationship with my parents is not perfect; within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect from myself perfection based on the ideal created within my mind without taking into consideration the facts of this reality and thus because I cannot manifest in this reality the ideal created within my mind I feel guilty and disappointed with myself.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the relationship with my parents depends on how we altogether make it work and function; within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my relationship with my parents depends solely on me and based on this believe I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty and disappointed that it is not perfect; I also forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am responsible for making my relationship with my parents perfect based on the ideal within my mind instead of working with what is here in the moment of breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid to say that my relationship with my parents is not good/perfect; within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my relationship with my parents should be always perfect and based on this believe I feel guilty whenever I say that it is not perfect.



When and as I see myself feeling guilty whenever I answer somebody's question about my relationship with my parents I stop and I breathe; I realize that I have created and ideal within my mind of how my relationship with my parents should look like and I expect myself to live this ideal in my life; but because I cannot do it thus I feel guilty about it. Thus I stop expecting myself to live the ideal created within my mind and instead I work with what is here in the moment.





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Published: 2013 - January - 27      © Copyright 2012 - Greg Wiater