I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use alcohol / cigarettes / drugs / other substances to suppress the anger and other emotions within me which I have defined as negative and unpleasant to deal with; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that through judging and suppressing my emotions I am refusing to see what I have created and allowed to exist within me, take responsibility for it and direct it in a way which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to get to know myself through investigating all that which I have defined as negative and instead I have accepted and allowed myself to use alcohol/cigarettes/drugs/other substances to suppress it so that I don't see/feel it; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that all that I have defined as negative, exists inside of me because I have created it or I have allowed it to exist within me and thus I am responsible for it and as long as I will deny to face and investigate all that I have defined as negative I will not be able to know myself. I also forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that through suppressing all that I have defined as negative and unpleasant within me with various substances so that I don't see/feel it, I allow it to continue to exist and accumulate within me which further takes me to the point when I will have to face/deal with accumulative consequences and thus I am allowing abuse towards myself and others instead of investigating it and directing in a way which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself judge parts of me as negative and positive and later allow all that is positive to be visible and all that is negative to hide and suppress with alcohol / cigarettes / drugs and other substances; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the defining as positive / negative as well as hiding and suppressing the negative exists only within my mind and is not real and thus sooner or later I will have to face myself / reality with its accumulative consequences of suppressing and hiding all that I have defined as negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny myself to get to know myself because I allowed myself to be directed by feelings which I have defined as negative and unpleasant and further I suppress it with alcohol/cigarettes/drugs and other substances; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that trough suppressing and denying to know that which I have defined as negative and unpleasant I allow myself to exist in an illusionary state that I am positive and thus I don't direct things in a way which is best for all.

When and as I see myself taking alcohol / cigarettes / drugs / other substances to suppress the negative unpleasant feeling within me, I stop and I breathe; I realize that I am trying to suppress something that I have defined as negative within and I don't want to take responsibility for it and direct it in a way which I best for all.