The other big thing that has changed is how I look at the point of wanting to change the world. Already in my teenage years I observed the atrocities in this world and I wanted to change it. I was full of excitement about it because I thought that all that is necessary to make it happen, is to show others with my example how each could change their life for better. And I was so sure that people will change their life instantly when I show them how I did it.
Anyway... this was also one of the reasons why I got involved actively with Desteni Group. Today I look at the world and still see the atrocities and abuse. I am aware even much more - than when I was teenager - how fucked up the world is and how much abuse and manipulation out of greed for money and power is going on. Though I am asking myself:
Who am I to change the world ?
I have tried to help people to make their life easier and better ( with small and big things ) but there is little interest in listening to my advice and applying it practically. So I came to the conclusion that most of the people - although they suffer - do not want to change anything in their life. So there is so much abuse and suffering because people want it. They make this decision to experience this suffering and I have no right to take away from them this right to suffer and struggle. And here my excitement about making this world better for all went away. I met people on my path who changed their life as a result of meeting with me but en mass this is not going to happen. I could be broadcasting on TV all over the world and all the information that I would share would change the world big time ( if applied practically by all ) but this is not going to happen as there is no interest in it.
So I stopped wanting to change the whole world. I accept that others have the right to choose the illusion and whatever belief they want to and I have no authority to deny them this right although it is painful to them and it could be stopped and changed easily. I accept it and I allow it. But not in my life. In my dominion ( e.g. my house, work etc. ) this type of illusions, abuse, manipulation etc. is not allowed. I have removed from my life and distanced myself from many people ( friends, family etc. ) and I do not allow easy any body to come close to me unless they represent the same values and principles ( e.g. what is best for all ).