I am focused on my goals. I do not allow time wasting. I did today twice the exercises at home. That was a difficult point to overcome because somehow it was difficult for me to motivate myself to do exercises at home. I saw this behaviour already in the past. Anyway I started today and I plan to continue doing it. I also did meditation one time during the day and after I finish with this article I will do another one. But still I feel some kind of blockage and stagnation and I have a little bit hangover like symptoms in my head. I noticed that my mind is accelerated and in my meditation earlier during the day I slowed it down a bit. But still it did not go away completely. Apart from this I do not feel the sweetness in my hearth. There is peacefulness and tranquillity but no sweetness.
Thus I am asking myself about the reason behind it. Maybe I am trying to do too much ? I do not know the answer right now but I know that sooner or later I will understand the reason behind this stagnation.
Last week I did some experiments with holding my breath and within 3 days of training I reached impressive 3.5 minutes. YES... I could hold my breath for 3 minutes and 30 seconds. This is the best ever result in my life. But I was very surprised that I did not see the improvement in holding the breath under the water when I went for a swim in the ocean. I did not have the watch but I count the strokes that I make and it was almost the same as in the past. So it looks like swimming under the water has its own rules although I suspect that if I continued my training at home then I would also get a better progress with holding the breath under water.
What else ?
I think that is all for today.
Here is the thought. When I feel this stagnation I cannot try to suppress it with doing silly and time wasting activities. I will go into constructive activities and spend more time in the nature instead. Because this goes against the older programs so there is some resistance. But the common sense and logic says that I need to stay focused no matter what.