I am catching up with posting online my articles.
Yesterday I got myself out of the center. The obvious reason was the masturbation while watching porn and later I played computer game. Anyway I realised that when I do something on the computer then my breathing is not effective. And this is not just about the game. Thus I decided that I would play the game but I would be aware of my breath. I did something like this in the past and I was kind of effective in re-establishing focus.
And so I did it last night. I played until very late as I could not keep the focus. I could not believe that I could not keep my focus for more than 10-20 seconds. I did not manage it last night. And so I continued today because I needed to make it happen. And in the end I did it. But I know that I should do this practice from time to time because other wise I forget it. The effective way to breathe was one breath and one click. It was really difficult for me to get to this point of playing a game for about 2 minutes and not losing my awareness of breath.
The way I was breathing would not be effective at work. I just need more practice.
Today I did not feel much of the wetness. It was there but in the background.