I do not know what to write

I am catching up with posting online my articles.

Today I was busy helping my mother to fix broken things around the house and painting a little bit the dirty spots on the walls. I am on my holidays but this job was rather enjoyable. At least it was not a big hassle or struggle to do it.

Apart from this I am still looking at the point of what my purpose is. For a rather long time I wanted to change the world and help people to make their life easier and better. But now I see that other people do not really want it. So I am here available and ready to do something in this direction but unless I get some help or direction from God/life I do not know what to do.

I am writing my JTL articles although I do not see any sense in doing it. I do it because I made the commitment 6 years ago. I do my meditation and sometimes I feel wonderful doing it but then I have also moments when I do not know if that has any sense. I follow certain techniques that I have learned which should help me to create my life the way I would like it to have. I do it rather regularly in the last couple of weeks but still I do not see the practical results of it yet. And like with my JTL articles I do it because I made a decision/commitment with myself that I will do it but I somehow start to doubt if these techniques are effective. Well... maybe I do not doubt it but I do not know when it will happen. Maybe I do too much unnecessarily ? I do not know.

I am at the point when I want to reduce my friendships. In the last couple of years I was more open and I had more contact with people. But now I am disappointed that people around me don't want to get out of their limited mind boxes and I want to step back.


Written: 2018 - July - 12   Published: 2019 - February - 15      © Copyright - Greg Wiater