I am catching up with posting online my articles.
I am pleased that I did some work today. It was just right and I could also do some other things like going to the gym and meditation.
Today I had an interesting realisation. Thus I was thinking about what I would like to have in my life in regards to material things. And I was trying to imagine it. And although I have my wishes and desires in the back of my mind ( probably like most of the people ) and I have had them for a long time I had problems with imagining them in details and vividly. And then I was also questioning some of my wishes and desires. For example I would like to have a bigger house but there was some resistance and objection in my mind. I was asking myself if I really need to have this big house. It seems as if having bigger house would need some big effort to have.
Then I realised that in my life I had moments when I my wishes manifested in my life. Even lately in the last 6 months I had 3 examples of it. Thus I realised first of all that I do not really have clear what I want. And even if I think that I have it clear then I have some resistance which shows me that I don't. And then I have many wishes and my energy is scattered while it should be focused on my wishes.
So what now ?
Well... I need to make some serious check of what I really want in my life and go for it and at the same time stop wasting my energy on wishing something that I do not want.