I do not know what to write

I am catching up with posting online my articles.

The days are passing by and I am still not posting online my JTL articles. This point is worrying me. I really want to do it but then I gave more priorities to other things and it just not happens.

Somehow I was not as regular with my meditation exercises and I feel like it is not as effective as it used to be. It is not as intense I could say.

I cannot say that I am lazy because I did a lot of dancing for example and I made here a lot of progress in the last couple of days but in general there is lack of balance at this moment. Again I am at the point when it is difficult to motivate myself to go for a run on the beach in the morning. I did a short dance practice today but there was also a resistance and wanting to postpone. At the same time I was looking for doing something silly and time wasting and I played a game on the computer although it was boring. I recognize the symptoms and need to do something about it.

Here is another important symptom. My awareness of breath is not there. The strength of lungs is good because I can hold the breath for long time when I go for a swim in the ocean but the awareness is not. And I see that I need to work on this element first. Now it is getting late but I do a breathing exercise with the focus on the awareness of breath.


Written: 2018 - June - 05   Published: 2018 - June - 11      © Copyright - Greg Wiater