I am catching up with posting online my articles.
I had a day filled with the pleasure of going to the beach and then I had some work in the afternoon. Now I just came back home from work and I observe how there are the tempting thoughts in my mind. The thoughts are about masturbation and watching porn. This is incredible and amazing to watch what is happening in me. All the time there is the point of me making the choice and the decision of what to do with these thoughts - act or not to act on them. If I acted on them then I guess nothing serious would happen. I would have some fun with masturbation and that's it. If I watched porn and masturbate then there would be some consequences related to it.
Anyway the whole point is that these tempting thoughts come in the moments when I try to make changes in my life. I want to experience something new in my life and thus I decided to not give my energy and power to certain experiences and use these energy for creation of these new experiences. At least this is the theory. What is going to come out of it, I will see.
Few weeks ago I had couple of moments when I did not know what to do with myself because that was the point when I made the decision to focus on new things. And this realese of the energy made me to feel like I do not know what to do with myself. Then I failed and I did some silly things to calm down the energies. But this calming down was just a waste time because I had to make a circle to face the same point today. Now I can do some silly things ( e.g. masturbation with porn ) and calm the energies down or continue walking my path and see where it takes me. The only way to find out is not to act on my tempting thoughts and focus on my goals and objectives. And this is what I am going to do.
I have to say that writing about this point helps me to make the decision to stay focused. So this is an additional benefit of writing JTL.