7 YRS PROCESS - DAY 1845 - FREE TIME AND THE DESIRES OF THE MIND - PART 3

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Free time and the desires of the mind

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So I stayed with her for couple of minutes trying to get the answer but I could not see anything coming up. Thus I decided that we will let it be for now and I will ask her for assistance the next day if I am stuck. She told me later that she was kind of disappointed with my decision but she accepted it.

She went to sleep and I was left alone. I did some things around the house and later I prepared myself a dinner. Then I sat on the sofa and I looked at the paper with the 2 points that I mentioned in the previous article. Almost instantly I got the realisation that the 3 missing point was to not fight my mind. I realised that although our mind "does some fucked up things" it is still part of me ( at least for now ) and I should accept it.

So this was the realisation but still I did not know in this moment what it means. Anyway I knew that I simply need to stay focused and I will see the answer. And so it came 2 days ago. Well... it is not yet the full answer but at least I have something that I can try out. And thus I thought that I can allow myself to have an ice cream if I feel like in the moment. Obviously this "I feel like" is the desire of the mind. And normally I do not allow myself to go into this point of allowing my mind the desires. Of course this wasn't always like this ( e.g. I was masturbating while watching porn ) but when it comes to the point of "sweet desires" I was very strict with my mind. Thus now I will allow myself to go with the desires of the mind from time to time to see how it goes for me. And then I will decide further if this is valuable for me and others.





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Written: 2017 - May - 05   Published: 2017 - August - 26      © Copyright - Greg Wiater