Fear of big projects

I am catching up with posting online my articles.

We are approaching the end of January and I am still working on the project which I thought would be finished in the middle of December. At some point I hoped that at the end of December I would not only finish that project but also I would be up to date with posting online my articles. But the reality is different.

Today I have been working all day on the computer and I did a lot of work. But then this a lot took me forward only few steps and there is still a lot to walk ahead of me. When I realised that there is still so much to do and it will take some time before I will be able to post online my JTL articles I got a reaction of frustration in my body. I feel some energy movement in my legs.

Apart from the frustration I also noticed the reaction of fear. I had a thought that there may be a small little thing not functioning properly and the whole project will not work. You'll know... this is the thing with the computers. Sometimes it is necessary to spend many hours on small things but yet they are so important that the whole program would not function properly.

Anyway I noticed the fear of the big projects because I fear that I will be tight up to it and I will not have time for myself. At the moment I basically work 7 days a week because I use my days off to work on this project. For example today I have been working about 13 hours on it.

Now I take a deep breath and I look at the whole situation to see where it this frustration coming from. Thus I see that I have made some plans in my mind in regards to when I finish my project and then I have made further plans in regards to what I will do with my time when I finish this project. But because this current project takes more time than forecasted in my mind so I get the reaction of frustration.

The correction is as follows. I stop putting the mental pressure on myself that I have to finish this project now. I realise that this is the wishful thinking within my mind. I simply walk forward step by step and eventually I will finish my project.

To be continued


Written: 2017 - January - 24   Published: 2017 - August - 24      © Copyright - Greg Wiater