Self-discipline gave me freedom

I am catching up with posting online my articles.

And thus even though I thought that it is impossible to make any plan organizing my work and rest finally I got one. Obviously the plan in itself would never work if I did not keep the discipline. And that was not always easy. Because you'll know... there are so many things that you would like to do out there instead of sitting in front of the computer for many hours doing stuff. But I broke through the resistance and the excuses and finally I got to the point when I am free. One of the main excuses was that I looked at making a plan as putting limits on myself and my life and taking away my freedom.

I know that saying that I am "free" sounds like something really big but believe me... although I was not imprisoned or enslaved by some other humans this small thing was really big. And today I realise that I was enslaved within my mind.

Do you know how long I have been struggling trying to cope with all of my tasks ?

Probably 3-4 years. Yes... I entered this cycle about 4 years ago. And it was getting worse and worse. Well... at some point I got sick.

So... this small but yet big thing was giving me a lot of stress and I was imprisoned in my mind. Now I have got out of it. I still have things to do and I still have many responsibilities to deal with but I am not under stress anymore. I have more time for myself and for rest. I get out more. I go to the beach and I dedicate time to my hobbies. And when I decide to do something it is not exclusively out of necessity but also it is a self-decision.

So... we will see how it goes in the future. But for now I see that planning is actually very good thing to do. You'll know... once you get yourself into the point when you stand in front of the mountain of problems making a plan of action will be the last thing that you will want to do. You will have a lot of excuses: - I do not have time to make plan - This is not for me - The plan is not going to work anyway - I do not want to limit myself and take away my freedom to make the decisions about my life and what I do - Etc.

OK... if you can get out of the problem without making the plan then go ahead. But if I speak with you few months later and you will be still standing in front of the mountain of problems ( which by the way got even bigger) then it is obvious that you need to make yourself a plan. Push yourself to do it. Realise that even though it seems that making a plan is like wasting a time ( because in the meantime you could be working on your problems ), in the long run it will be more beneficial to have a plan. But you will only see it and realise it once you push yourself to do it despite the resistance within your mind and then if you will stick to it and do it over a period of time.

Self-discipline is a threat for the ego and the mind consciousness system. And all of the resistance comes from your mind. Doing a plan as a self-decision, self-direction and self-movement will give you freedom.



Written: 2015 - August - 11   Published: 2015 - August - 28      © Copyright 2015 - Greg Wiater