I am catching up with posting online my articles.
This is the continuation of the previous article:
IS BETRAYAL OF MY BEST FRIEND A GOOD SIGN ? - PART 1
IS BETRAYAL OF MY BEST FRIEND A GOOD SIGN ? - PART 2
IS BETRAYAL OF MY BEST FRIEND A GOOD SIGN ? - PART 3
3. Do I feel betrayed ?
NO... I don't feel betrayed. I see that I have made a mistake ( e.g. I allowed myself to hope and expect that somebody would do something, I sacrificed myself for others ) but at the same time I did not allow this point to completely destroy me. When I started to see what is going on I started to act and direct the point of challenging the ego of my partners. My friend is probably at least angry with me ( or something like this ) but I know that I have given my friend the possibility to go through his cycle as quickly as possible and make necessary corrections when he is ready. And so I am at peace with myself.
I have lost some money as a result of this whole situation but then I know that this money belonged to the other path on which I decided to not walk on. That means that if I did not challenge the ego of my friend and I stayed with him on the same path then I would recover my money. But I know that I would not be at peace with myself and I would have to face the consequences which would be much more unpleasant than the money that my friend did not returned to me. But at the same time we cannot ignore the fact that if I stayed with my friend then there was also a possibility ( actually quite high probability ) that I would lose even more money.
So my friend is out there walking his path and his own cycle. And I am here doing my stuff. I stop giving my energy and focus to "what if I acted in different way" and instead I work with what is here. Because in the end I cannot change the past. I am here with what is left with me and I all that I can do now is to use it in the best possible way for the best of all. And so I will continue with my project. It was started with 3 of us and it seemed that together we would be able to achieve much rather than working separately. And now I am left alone. But this does not change anything. I will do my best and I will continue going forwards.
Now... I am glad and proud of myself that I was able to stop my participation in the mind pattern and later I was able to direct the point according to what is best for all. But I still need to have a closer look at the whole situation and investigate why I have allowed myself to fall into the trap of hoping and expecting instead of looking at the real facts.
And so tomorrow I will do self-forgiveness and self-correcting statements. I do not know if I will publish them though just in case my friends find out about it and they start to get angry about publishing online private things about us.
To be continued