I am catching up with posting online my articles.
So... 2-3 weeks ago I started to experiment with trying to eliminate time wasting activities from my agenda and focus 100% on my goals and priorities. At the first approach I failed. I did manage to make some changes in my agenda and I did more work on my priority goals and tasks but I could not do it for 7 days as I intended at the start of this experiment. Then I decided to start again with the experiment but the 2nd approach was not fully successful either.
Although this experiment seems to be really easy I continue to fail. As I said I have managed to apply some interesting changes already in my schedules and agenda as a result of this experiment and I am really glad that I did but still this is not all that I wanted to do. So I will not give up and I will continue with my experiment until I succeed.
But this is not all for today. I start to see a certain mind pattern, which explains why I have this tendency to fail. Thus I have realised that I use guilt to motivate myself to do my tasks and responsibilities.
So how is it ( this guilt pattern ) manifested in my life ?
Well... let's say that I have some responsibilities/tasks, which I should/want do but I procrastinate and find excuses not to do it. And instead I browse the internet senselessly or I play some computer game. And I don't stop after few minutes but I continue ( sometimes hours ) until I feel bad about it or guilty that I am not doing my tasks and only then I get myself to start doing my responsibilities. And then I make some steps forward and when I feel content that I did some work then I get again into the mode of slacking and wasting time on senseless stuff.
It is very interesting to discover it and this in itself encourages me to continue with my experiment, which seemed very easy and insignificant at the beginning but I already see that it is extremely important to complete it.