I am catching up with posting online my articles. I moved to a new place and I was without fixed internet access for almost a month. I was also very busy with work and that is why I got this big delay with posting online. Though I did not skip a single day with writing my articles.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be better than my father; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have allowed myself to compare myself to my father and later to define myself within my mind as less than him and thus later I wanted to deny it and prove that I am not less than him.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that by wanting to be better than my father I entrap myself within doing "things" to prove that I am better than my father according to the standards created within my mind ( earning more money ) instead of expressing myself as self within every moment of breath.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I will be able to prove that I am better than my father if I earn more money than him; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that this is an illusion created within my own mind and it will never prove that I am better than my father no matter how much money I earn.
To be continued...