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Yesterday I played the popular Facebook game called "Candy Crash Saga". This is not the first time that I play it but I had a break from it for couple of weeks. And yesterday I tried it again. But my objective was not so much going to next levels but stay aware of my breath while I am occupied with crashing the candies.
And what a surprise !!! Despite my strenuous effort I was not able to keep my awareness on breath. Once I got involved into the game "My breath was taken away"... And I was trying to do it for 3-4 hours and I could not do it. I finished late and I went to sleep with big surprise and disappointment.
Today I have tried again. It was going much easier but still a lot of struggle. But after 4 hours I have managed to actually keep my attention on breath for the whole game and then I also carried this into my life and every moment when I do something.
What does this experience tell me about myself ?
Obviously I have let myself to fall of the path. Breath is the base of everything. If we don’t breathe and we are not aware of the breath and the body then we are drifting in our mind and this is asking for problems. Now once I have pushed myself to breathe with awareness and I have made the correction I can see more clearly that I have drifted away from the path in the last couple of months. I thought that I am aware of my breath but in the end it was not effective. I had moments when I was breathing ok but then I had a lot of moments when I was busy and let it go. This is not good but I am glad that I am back on track.