I had problem with internet last night and thus I am posting my article today.
The further away I am from the abuse and/or insanity the more abusive/insane I see it and on the contrary the closer I am to the abuse/insanity meaning that I participate within it either as a victim or abuser the easier it is for me to find a belief/excuse within my mind justifying it and believing that the world is the way it is, that it cannot be changed and even that it is normal and acceptable or that I am being put to the test or that I am being tempted to do it by the devil.
And I can either continue to leave the insanity behind and be a living example to others that transforming of the insanity is possible or I can come back to it, join the crowd and get lost again.
But again... it is rather unusual for anybody who has freed himself from it once, to go back to it and become blinded by the illusion that this is the only reality and it cannot be changed.
These are my conclusion after going through the process of transformation of fears, illusions, beliefs etc. And I could tell you more about it but unless you do it yourself for yourself you will never be able to comprehend me fully and it is also very possible that you will call me crazy, insane, dangerous etc. because of your own fear of going through the process of challenging and transformation of your own ego which consist of your own fears, beliefs, opinions, justifications, excuses, emotions, feelings etc., which look within your mind as absolute truth but in the end they are only illusions which only seem to be real. And you will also see it once you go through the process of transformation.
But in the meantime you will have to make a decision to either stay where you are and "enjoy" your comfortable life within the matrix or you will have to be ready to give up and possibly lose all that which you value the most at the moment and go through a period of transformation and uncertainty until you know for sure and without any doubt whatsoever what is real and free yourself from all the illusions which seemed to be so real.