7 YRS PROCESS - DAY 297 - SILENT ABUSER - PART 2

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Silent abuser

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create within my mind an image of perfection of how my parents/partner should be and I have accepted and allowed myself to expect from my parents/partner to behave in this way; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that that through my expectations I miss the facts of reality and instead of addressing and working with the reality I am letting myself to fall into disappointment and feeling hurt.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire that my parents are perfect and whenever I see that my parents are not perfect I allow myself to feel hurt; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that my feeling of being hurt I am giving my power to external events and it is an excuse and escape to not look at myself and apply the correction within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my father/partner will correct the point of abuse themselves and I don't have to do anything about it; within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have created within my mind an image of my father/partner being perfect and because I am afraid to destroy this image thus I am not doing anything to correct that point because I don't want to destroy this image of perfection within my mind; I also forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel hurt because my father/partner don't correct the point of physical abuse in the same way as I have imagined it in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that through expecting my father/partner to correct the point of abuse and me not doing anything about it, I am allowing the abuse and thus I am responsible for it.





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