This is the continuation of the previous article:

USING OTHERS AND THROWING THEM INTO RUBBISH BIN - PART 1
USING OTHERS AND THROWING THEM INTO RUBBISH BIN - PART 2
USING OTHERS AND THROWING THEM INTO RUBBISH BIN - PART 3

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that through setting myself goals without considering what is best for all I am participating in creation of consequences in the form of abuse and suffering of others and it is done for the sake of my own comfort and satisfying my personal desires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to set myself goals which I want to achieve and during the process of achieving them I am allowing myself to use and abuse others while justifying that it is ok because in that moment my goal is the most important thing; thus I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that through this I am prioritizing my personal goals and my ego over life and thus I create series of consequences in the form of abuse, pain and suffering to multitude of other beings in the world - people, animals, insects, plants and many more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be positive person without realizing that unless I live practically principle of what is best for all, being positive is self defined in my mind and being positive in this situation will only depend on how I define what I do; thus it is possible to cause harm and suffering to others and still define it in my mind as acceptable and positive; while in reality the results of it are obvious because it is causing harm and suffering.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am more special then others and thus I deserve to achieve my goals without considering what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I deserve to achieve and fulfill all my goals and together with the belief that I am special and the universe takes care of me, I accept blindly every possible opportunity to achieve my goals because I believe blindly that this opportunity comes from god and universe which is again my self created belief which I define as ultimately positive; and through this I accept this opportunity without considering what is best for all; and in the moment when I start to see that it is not best for all and it causes harm and suffering to others I suppress it and blind myself with another positive belief that the universe takes care of all and even though somebody suffers it is still positive for them because they have to learn their lessons.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that every opportunity to achieve my goal comes from god or universe which I have defined in my mind as ultimately positive and thus I have allowed myself to accept it blindly without questioning it and without considering if it is best for all; and even if I have allowed myself to question it then I have quickly found justifiable excuse in my mind so that I could reach my goals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the opportunities to reach my goals come from god or universe while in reality it is me who creates these opportunities and believing that they come from god is just my way of not taking responsibility for the consequences which they produce, thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to fear to take responsibility for my deeds and actions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am special and I deserve that all my goals are being fulfilled no matter what; and thus I have the right to use everything and everybody to achieve my goals; and if anybody denies and rejects to comply to help me to achieve my goals ( even at the cost of their suffering ), then I have the right to abuse them and justify it that I am doing them favor anyway.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that every person that I meet in my life is being sent to me by god or universe to help me to achieve my goals and thus I have the right to use them as much as possible so that I may achieve my goals and in this I don't have to consider the principle of what is best for all because according to my beliefs I am making them favor anyway.

To be continued...