This is the continuation of the previous article about responsiblity when selling guns.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny the fact the I am responsible for all the consequences of my deeds; thus whenever I sell/manufacture guns then I am responsible for everything that is being done with this gun by anybody and for the whole life of this gun.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find the excuses through which I try to deny the fact that I am not responsible for all that is being done with this gun and at the same time I try to make myself feel better.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am directly responsible for all that it is being done with the gun that I sell or manufacture because if I didn't sell/produce the gun then there would not be any deeds or acts done with this gun; without me this gun would not exist or would not get into the hands of the criminal, soldier, terrorist etc. But because I have participated in the production/selling of this gun thus I am responsible for all that is being done with it and no excuse or justification will ever remove this responsibility from me.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am also responsible for that it is being done with the guns ( war, crime, abuse etc. ) even though I don't sell/manufacture directly the guns; and the reason for it is that I have accepted and allowed the existence of the system which allows and supports production and sale of guns; and even though I am only "1 small drop in the sea" this is undeniable fact that I am a part of this whole system thus I am directly responsible for that is happening within the system; without me this whole system would not exist the way it exists now.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am blinding and fooling myself self-willingly when it comes to the topic of morality of selling/manufacturing guns; I am finding various excuses to deny the fact of personal responsibility and justify my egoistic interests to make as much profit as possible for myself instead of realizing and looking at what is best for all and then make all necessary actions according to this principle; because as long as something is not best for all then somebody will benefit at the cost of suffering of others.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that making decisions which are best for all is difficult; the only difficulty is in my mind because I simply don't want to give my all my benefits and profits which I have accumulated through living the principle of what is best for me at the cost of others.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I must let fall apart all of the creations which serve only best interest of mine and start to create only that which is best for all; and once I start doing it, it is going to be easier and easier for all to create, make the decisions and live the principle of what is best for all; it is the common sense and logic and once I realize that then making decisions which are best for all will not be difficult anymore.