7 YRS PROCESS - DAY 87 - HITTING THE BOTTOM - PART 2

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not able to take control of my life and I have allowed myself to be overwhelmed by the problems.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that if I let myself to feel overwhelmed by the problems and I don't solve them effectively then they will accumulate and sooner or later I will be hit by the reality of the mountain of unresolved problems.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait for the shock of the "hitting the bottom" to get motivated to start solving my problems and direct my life.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to take the responsibility and I have let outside elements to take control of my life.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that if I don't take responsibility and don't direct my life as me as myself then I am the subject to influence by outside elements and the outcome of the events is unpredictable and dramatic.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that if I don't take responsibility for my life then I also let others down and they have to also carry the responsibility for me.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the whole life on Earth is interdependent and connected with each other; thus whenever I fail on taking the responsibility I let the rest down and others must also take responsibility for me.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that when I fail to take responsibility for myself then my partner has to take responsibility for both of us and this makes it unnecessary more difficult for my partner.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to run away from facing my reality and solving my problems by using drugs and alcohol.



I commit myself to take responsibility for myself and direct my life as myself and to deal with my problems and challenges in every moment without postponing it for the future.

I commit myself to deal with my problems and challenges as soon as possible without postponing it and allowing that they accumulate to the point when it becomes overwhelming.

I commit myself to not let myself fall into depression and deal with my problems and challenges as soon as possible; I realize that this is the only effective way to deal with them anyway thus it is better for all that I deal with them now instead of later without letting others down and forcing them to take responsibility for me.

I commit myself to not try to desensitize myself with drugs and alcohol so that I don't see or feel this reality and instead I will breath and solve my problem one by one, moment by moment.





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Published: 2012 - July - 15      © Copyright 2012 - Greg Wiater