Sometimes you will find yourself in the situation where there are so many problems that you are completely overwhelmed. And what makes it even more discouraging is that you have been trying to solve your problems for some time already but there is always more and more of them and it seems that there is never going to be an end to it. And you come to the point when you say to yourself: "fuck it all... what is the sense of living".
But remember that there is nobody else but you who has allowed this shit happen to you and go so far. I know that in these moments it is quite often difficult to see it or at least you will try to deny that it is your responsibility but the fact is that it was always you. If you are really self honest and aware you will be able to pinpoint those critical moments when you compromised and made the decisions through your mind and backchat.
Now I see one of my friends going through this point when he has to deal with series of annoying problems which come one after another and it seems as if they will never end and which are the consequence of making decisions based on mind and feelings which made him blind and ignore the facts of our reality on earth. But he still doesn't accept it completely and looks for the cause of his problems outside of himself. I assist him with this point by pointing out the critical moments of making decisions and ignoring the reality so that he stops blaming others and takes self responsibility for it but still he doesn't accept it completely yet.
Well... it is a process and it may take some time to figure this out. But in any case, before you make decisions about your life or ending it because there is no sense continuing like this especially because you are convinced that you have done everything humanly possible to solve all of the problems and still it doesn't get you anywhere, remember that because you don't see the solution for the problems it doesn't mean that there is no solution at all. People forget quite often one thing - you are inside of it all and thus it is very easy to get lost in it and not being able to see everything objectively and not being able to see ( or rathr accept ) the solution which would really solve the problems. I know that the situation may be extremely difficult but it doesn't mean that you have really done everything possible to change it and this gives you an excuse to kill yourself. The reason that you are getting nowhere is because all that you do is not addressing the core of the problems which is you and you blaming others for you problems. And for example blame is indicating that you are not taking responsibility for the problems yourself and as long as you place the cause of the problems outside of yourself you will never be able to solve them.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that the mountain of problems which I have to face today is the consequence of my decisions and allowances from the past and wanting to kill myself because I am apparently not able to solve the problems, is just ultimate form of running away from taking responsibility and making the change.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that the only solution to solve all the problems of the world is to live the principle of what is best for all and everything else is just creating more problems and suffering not only for me but also for the whole world.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that the mountain of problems which I have to face today is the consequence of making decisions which are not based on the principle of what is best for all and thus I have too take responsibility for my creations and correct them by living the principle of what is best for all in every moment of breath.