Of course the point of being violent and angry is intent of that person to overpower you, scare you so that you back up and stop challenging them. Now... what is the usual trigger point which activates the outburst of anger, fury and violent abuse ? I have noticed when dealing with people that this happens when I present them an undeniable evidence and proof which could destroy their self-built illusion and definition ( e.g. being a positive person ). In reality in this moment of challenge the person has a great chance to look at their application and make the correction but if they choose continuing the denial and choose to live in the illusion they will - as I said before - explode in anger and will try to destroy you. And it doesn't matter that they define themselves as good and positive person. In that moment everything is allowed and later it is being justified as being "ok" because I have either provoked them or I am a bad person ( an evil ) etc. - they will always try to find a failure in me to justify their attack and use of violence. It is not being regarded as negative at all and the person continues with creating and building their definition and illusion of being positive.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as positive person without realising that I use positive thoughts to suppress and to cover up my self dishonesty and egoism.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to destroy those who challenge my egoism and illusions about being positive person.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to kill and destroy Jesus because he was challenging and threatening my egoism, self-created illusions and self-dishonesties.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that suppressing and covering up my egoism and self dishonesty with beautiful and positive thoughts is never going to solve the problem but instead it is going to prolong the whole process of transformation and at the same time it is going to intensify the suffering caused by it.
P.S. Jesus was the challenge and threat to the dishonesties and the egoism of the people. But he didn't need any army to do it. Just his presence and self-honesty was the point of challenge because those who have seen him and heard his words knew immediately that they are dishonest. But instead of admitting it and applying correction they have decided to destroy him so that they may continue with their egoism without being reminded about it by somebody else ( Jesus ). Also as a consequence of not applying the correction we have today much more suffering to deal with. And again if we don't apply the correction today we will allow even more suffering in the future which may even end up in complete destruction of humanity and life on earth.
To be continued...