How many times have I heard people talking about love, higher consciousness, moral values that we should follow and live ? How many times have I listened to people talking about infinite love ? How many times have I listened to people talking about positive thinking ?
And everything would be fine if I didn't see them later in a full-on explosion of hate, anger and rage screaming furiously at their partner, children, employees etc. together with throwing and breaking cups, plates and other objects in their proximity.
Something is not right here - you say one thing but you do the opposite. And even though this is so obvious these people still try to find all sorts of different excuses to justify their behaviour as completely ok because somebody else has pissed them off.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that love is opposite polarity of hate.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that my explosions of anger and hatred are the consequences of suppressing the problems instead of solving them effectively.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that blaming others for pissing me off and reacting in anger, screaming and breaking objects is the result and consequence of me suppressing the problems and the sign that I am not dealing with them effectively.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that talking and believing in infinite love is covering up and supressing the real problem with the energy layers. And as a consequence of this suppressing, the problems accumulate through the time which provokes the necessity to release this build-up of pressure through violent expression of anger towards other beings and myself.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that if love doesn't include what is best for all, then this love that I am talking about is defined as a polarity of a mind and ego. And because it exists as a polarity of the mind then every time I believe in it and create love as an energetic, blissful experience within myself then I am responsible for creation at the same time of its opposite polarity as hate and anger as a balancing point within the mind consciousness system.